Gal, there’s really a lot of things in my mind i wanna tell you
But ever since september, things has really change between you and me
I felt like i was put aside by you
I wish you could read my blog to know what i am feeling now
You no longer call me so often to talk crap
You no longer call me as long as those days
You no longer tell me what happened to you
You no longer let me tell you what i feel
You no longer care bout me
You no longer see me that often
You no longer notice me
You no longer hang out with me
I don’t want to be the only one calling you
I don’t want to be the only one that’s maintaining this hard built relationship of ours
I don’t want to be the only one walking in the mall, talking to myself
I don’t want to be the only one in anything
I’m really afraid what my instinct told me will come true
I’m really afraid what i dream will turn to reality
Could things just be the same as before?
You don’t even know many things has happened to me recently, because you no longer spend that amount of time with me and you don’t even bother to ask.
There’s so many things to tell you, everytime i call you, roughly 3 minutes, you say you are tired, you wanna sleep.
I really miss those days where we really had great times together
Gal, where have you been?
Can i not be the only one holding on to this?
Cause it needs 2 hands to clap

-looking at our SS photos that we took-

I’ve just saw you a moment ago….
But the one you saw, was francine with a mask on her
She’s doing that for your sake
So that you would think that i’m still a friend of yours
Because you have never cared about what i feel when we were together, i don’t see why you should even care bout what i feel right now

The moment she got back, she took off her mask…
She’s feeling very tired, a lot of things she don’t understand.
If you have cared for me with this current attitude last time
We would have last till now….
Cause she realised, she’s really really into it
My fren said that sentence again recently….
“Gal, he doesn’t deserve you. You’ll get a better one. Forget him ok?”

Maybe they are right after all, it’s just that the stupid gal refuse to stop
Getting herself unnecessary problem….

Didn’t expect my bro will still give me my birthday present… haha
Got a Levis jeans from him, wahahha
Now that’s de expensive stuff in my wardrobe… haha
unlike his, he got lots.
Thanks Bro….

Finally nicky’s birthday is over….
No need to think what to give… swt
Quite a huge crowd that turn out….
Tak sangka he really got so many relatives..
The cake he had was…. cute, haha
with the 21 on it with many little circles….
Thanks those who help me utilise my camera when i wasn’t around…

Wishing nicholas…. a very happy birthday again…..

Well suddenly i feel this blog has become a place to release my feelings
I know you don’t read my blog, and i dun think you know it even exist
But i wanna say i really don’t feel like replying your msg….
You ask me what you mean we are just friend?
Dude!!! Because you don’t get the hang of i have feel for you all this while!
And you dont even care bout what i feel….
At least when i’m around, i’m invinsible to you….
What the hell you want me to reply you?
Isn’t friend a very good thing of me to say that?
And you’ll always be my friend…. always, nothing will change that
What you’ve done for me so far, i really appreciate
You’ve been so smart, as far as i know….
But you didn’t really notice me.
So what am i suppose to do now?
Sit there and continue what i did previously?….
I also wanna get over it…. and get done with it…
I’m practically so anti love songs now!!!!
Feeling so lost……

It’s really the end
It should stop already…
I’m tired….. i guess u too…
I think, no matter how hard i try, i will still be gone
No matter what ppl see in me to u…..
I should really come to an end, cause u will never ever in life, notice it
Come to think of it, even my 13 y.o sis can see it, and u can’t
I’m feeling really fed up….
Do whatever you like……
If i were to stop here, i think we can still be friends
If i continue to act like this….. our relationship will surely end….
I don’t know what u see nor feel……
I don’t want to know….
I just don’t want to end up feeling sad every moment i’m alone…
I don’t want to stare at the lecturer in the middle of the class looking blank, not knowing what are they talking bout….
If you really do treat me as friend, give me a break….. at least for this moment.

It’s time for me to get real this time…..
Live the present…..
If i have a choice, no calls from you, no face to face with you, no news from you…..but i will take you as a friend of mine, so this will not be a choice
I know i really have to start a life of my own cause everyone around me is having real gd fun
I want those life too….. i really want them…..
Cause i really can’t remember….. when’s the last time i’d truely laugh
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Dedication to Lee KEnG…..
Happy 21st birthday…. hope u like those video u saw…
Have fun k….