camp was fun…. but, i think it’s like the committee shock sendiri lo… haha… curi curi eat a&w, eat biscuit at room, on air con…. etc… haha. play mafia 24/7…. respect wei… haha.. non stop and no one is bored about it… but now i am…. always staring at the four walls… homework dunno how to do… ask also dunno ask who…. no tuition teacher…. i desperately need one… no phone to use… i got scolded dunno how many times for that. sigh. bill is so so so high. but can’t blame me a… i really got things to do… camp ma. need to call participant and stuff… so how can i avoid?

i missed a lot of things…. dunno y… i always feel i’m left behind… only some ppl will treasure me, miss me, but my so calll true fren doesn’t. i shouldn’t have left. everyone there is so so so gd to me. they remembered me. we still had fun now, but limited time. had to fix a time to come out, that’s the problem…. i really miss u guys a lot…. thanks for sharing those secrets wif me wei.. haha… and dun go spreading my secret… i trust u a lot… hehe…. remember that.

sigh,….can’t anyone tell me wat to do now?… i really dunno wat to do except emo to myself and to the four walls..!!!! thinking bout things that shouldn’t be thought of…. want to ask ppl for opinion but can’t. help wei!!!!! if this carries on, ppl pls come visit me at the tanjung rambutan. my mind juz can’t stop thinking. everything. i want this, but i’m scared that something might happen. i want that, i might hurt ppl’s feelings. i really dunno wat to do!…..i really want the best for both side, but i juz dunno how… i dun want to miss the time that we can spend together, but i scared we end up… hating each other… gosh… the fun of talking, banging, teasing, laughing, emoing, hanging out together is so so so, unforgetable….i had lotsa fun! really, and i mean it! will we be able to be so gd after this? still so fren? or we end up hurting each other? i’m really really sorry!!!! sorry…. pls accept it! dun ask y….i know i hv made u feel very bad. i’m sorry. what hv i did to make u not trust me? i really want to know…. but i suppose i will never get the chance to know it. i’m really really sorry. i juz hope u know what i’m thinking about, coz i really dunno how to tell u. but trust me for one thing, what i said before u leave is really true, it’s from the bottom of my heart. believe me! i dunno how long can i last doin this… thinkin bout the times we had… i’m not sad bout it but sometimes, ya. somehow i’m still glad that i hv known u. it’s really my greatest pleasure. i juz hope if one day we are really done, we can still maintain as what we were before and forget about wat had happen, juz like a dream. i really really dun wan to lose such a fren like u… and i’m sorry for wat i’ve done to u….. i really really miss u and the fun time we spent!