Chapter 2…..

Ally…. always talk a lot in class…. asking too much silly questions….
hidayah…. and arme…. u surely see them together… all the time. the only 2 malays in class…. sitting right infront… very guai de….
chen lam…. ppl call him lam lam…. i wonder y….. he’s so so so freakin quite! never talk at all….!!!

….. erm…. no mood to write…. so next time…. haha ally’s gonna bug me tml bout this… haha

i just….. am really sorry the way i am….. i know i shouldn’t say….
i just wanted to share with u….
i just wanted u happy….
i just wanted u to be the way u were before and after…..
i just wanted u to feel proud…..
i just wanted to help u out in ur problems…
what i wanted is really very simple…..
u can tell me what u feel all the time…..
u can trust me in anything….
i misses the time without u…..
i want to listen to ur very voice….
i dun mean u to feel bad everytime….
i suppose the needle will always be in there….
a gap between…..
i really dun wan……. this to happen…

this is wat i see everyday in sch….. is quite fun to observe u know?….
i seldom talk…. that’s the problem…. i don’t seem to be opening my mouth…..
but it’s gd to see when ur outside the circle…. very nice view… sometimes… not all….

my class….
nicholas and preveena…. partners in class….. always teasing doreen non-stop… everytime roy’s name is mention… here u see tomato… her face will turn as red as tomato!!!! doreen will surely to call me hubby, i don’t know y….it’s suppose to be the other person which she has admitted. u see nick… u see nanthini. our class treasurer (always like to wag ppl when she got excited)… always in his heart…. u see nan, u see kiran (pity her always kena from nan)…both, best friends… nick likes nan more than kiran, that’s wat u see him say everyday. haha. he’s damn scary when he comes to a serious look. everyone says that… no just me o. alicia…. our assist monitor… always trying to make ppl laugh. but end up teacher will be looking at her. u’ll see her stone face every maths period… haha lying on the table looking at teacher. was sin… prom queen from her previous sch, can’t deny the fact that she is not bad…. sometimes very quite… seldom see her talk. always hanging out wif ally…teaching her what to do when ally’s blur. regina… always see her happy… singing everywhere she goes… even in toilet… no joke! jega… the smallest size in class. u’ve changed a lot compare last time. ur silent when sitting with me last year… hehe.

….. erm…. i shall continue…. the second chapter is coming up…. as not everyone is on the list yet…. don’t kill me…

i thought…. that one day might be today…but it still ends up zero. do u know how badly i wanted u to feel for it? u never knew. robot am i?… fine… i shall be one…. u rather want another type i suppose. i thought u felt it. i really thought…. but i suppose i was wrong again…. i was always wrong. my fault. i never felt things correct when i’m around u. i wonder…. what happen to my feelings? am i over sensitive or wat? but it’s quite obvious that ur not ok…. y can’t u say so? y must it be it’s my life, get lost? stop asking me question. u don’t need to know? what so hard answering my question?

y don’t u believe me? there’s only one answer… a very certain answer…. don’t doubt it. don’t think too much. say wat ur heart wants to say…. feel wat it’s suppose to be. don’t doubt it. trust urself. sometimes u juz hv to see what u see… it’s really just an answer. there’s no maybe… or perhaps … or mungkin!!!!! i just wanted some answers from u to know more….. really that hard ma? i don’t think so lo… y so hard to say? don’t know what to say?

i’m really sorry what happen this early morning and and yesterday night. i never thought it would happen…. i hope it doesn’t hurt anymore. i really couldn’t sleep when i thought of it. it hurts me… when i see u like this…. don’t say don’t worry… i will…always… no matter what happens….