i miss you…..
ever since u started shifting…..
it’s so hard to contact you….
barely could talk more than a minute on the phone….
barely could hear your voice…..
very low signal… that’s the point…..
i suppose i’ll be having a hard time calling u through to dat number…..
starting from the day ur staying there….
i know…. i understand….. and i dun mind you being busy…..
you have to help out…. a lot….
you’re so good that’s all i would say…..
that’s why I LOVE YOU….. a lot…..
remember that always…

sometimes you seem so tensed….
i couldn’t help…..
i wish i could…..
at least u won’t seem so frustrated…..
everything keep to ursself…..
though it might not be related to me….
but still…. is better to spill in out than keeping it…

Bored to death wei…..
i wanna go home……
my home sweet home….
i wanna lie on my bed….
doin nothing….

i wanna sms u……
but it’ll take ages…..
sigh

School….. finally has started….
i’m still not back to that mood though i’m teling myself that i am…..
can’t lie to myself….though others might think i already had…..
sitting right infront….. how sad!!!!!!
there’s so much things that can’t be done…..
teacher will be sitting right infront of me!!!!!!
what’s the use of the teacher’s table when they don’t want to use it?
instead they use my table….. i purposely carry it to a strategy place…
but still no use…. how sad…..!!!!
everyone is so happy seeing everyone……
me too….. though i’m quite…..
i feel myself getting worst and worst….. nothing to be said…..
mouth close most of the time….. only the sound of laughter could be
heard silently….. feeling lonely…. is like nothing can be talk
about…. cause i really don’t know what to say…. just like to sit
and listen…. is this bad? can anyone tell me?
sometimes i rather be alone…. and observe people.
i’m lucky to have friends that actually care about me….
i might not talk to them that often… ..
they try to make me talk and make me part of them…..
i sincerely thank them…. really…..
i just wish i could be like them….
no one likes talking to me…. i’m very sure of that…..
sometimes i even felt like sitting alone…. i feel so stupid when
people beside me asks me question and i can’t seem to answer….
therefore i like hiding myself at a corner…..
no one would notice me….
no one would even know i exist…..
the first thing people beside me would say to me is swat team…..
the first word is either s, w or a….. how sad!!!!!
i never leave anyone i know alone aside…..
i always care about them….
i never ‘ditch’ people…..
only sometimes when i really had to leave, and can’t stay, then only i go
that’s not ditch right?….. i’m very sure that’s not…..!!!!
DC line…. is now back to the field….
gosh …. i really thought i won’t have allergies anymore….
cause nothing did really happen on thursday…. after i step out of it….
except….. itchy….
as soon as i got back…..
pop…. one red hot spot on my right leg…..
pop…. one red hot spot on my left leg….
pop…. another one on my right….. OMG!!!!!!!
so itchy and pain!!!!!! so red like tomato!!!!!!
friday morning…. after a few minutes of stepping….
pop pop….. two at left leg!!!!!!!
LOL…. it’s so itchy and no cream to put at school!!!!
lucky it’s not so big and obvious….
i really don’t know how long will these last…..
better get lost soon….
if not people will start questioning me!!!!!!
sigh but still everyday have to step on the field…..
how le??????

Never say I love you
if you don’t really care…..
never talk out feelings
if they aren’t really there….
never hold my hand
if you mean to break my heart….
never say forever
if you plan to part…….
never look into my eyes
if you are telling me a lie…..
never say hello
if you think you’ll say goodbye…..
never say i’m the one
if you dream of more than me…..
never lock up my heart
if you don’t have the key…..

sad huh? really sad….
but it sound quite true right?…..
nothing happens in a perfect way……
so we should always be chill about it…..
we human always do things what our heart says….
we follow it, that what makes us special….
but whatever happens, we shouldn’t do something stupid…..
be sad about it, it’s ok….. time will be the healing equipment….