one whole week…. schooling but no teaching at all!!!
i brought my bag full with books but…. not all teacher taught…
plus school was like a market…
every morning people walking in and out selling stuff…
it’s tiring u know? it’s not that easy….
especially u hv to persuade them buying your product…
all of us were so tired when we got back home…
i practically can’t stand long when i got home….
my legs were paining…. till no words could describe….
i spend the whole hour lying on my bed… grasping for air.
lucky it’s ending soon….and canteen day is tomorrow…
what i can’t believe is i actually fell sick because of running here and there for a week… cracking my head what to sell and calculating the cost!!!!
just hope we have enough money for our magazine…
so that i don’t need to pay…
everything is money in school…
kinda like so bankrupt this few weeks buying things….

i’m heart broken…..
into million pieces….
i duno why….
it just happen to me just like that….
i don’t know what caused it…
i don’t know what i done….
that’s why i can’t seem to find things that can make me happy anymore….
though no one notice….
no one knew how i felt….
cause if they were to ask…., i would only know how to answer them ….
i don’t know why….
then ppl will think i’m just a weirdo….
i’m no different from u…..
i’m still who human that eats, sleeps and play…..
maybe i like to stone a bit more than anyone of u….
but i’m still human…..
a human with a broken heart…..

i suppose today was the best sunday ever…
not only that. most of all i get to spend it with my family…
except my dad and bro…
me, mom and sis actually went for a movie…
it wasn’t even on the plan at all!…
just wanted to go ioi for book hunting….
only there i get F6 books…
but end up we were in the cinema!!!
of course, we did  buy some books la…
if not i wont get what i want…!!!
bridge to terabithia….
quite a nice show… at least to us is nice…
me and my mom actually drop some tears…
believe it?…how sad…
I don’t blame those who dont’ tell me the truth…
i don’t think they did it on purpose…
they are the ones who are preparing me to the real world…
in another way, i have to thank them to….
i’m still small and have not seen the real world…
but i’m sure is definitely what i thought…
no wonder people says i’m naive…
that’s why.. i have to thank them…
they made me mature in another way….
made me think of things i have never thought of before…
thanks a lot…

i’m quite confused lately…
i’m disappointed almost everyday….
i don’t know what confused me…..
i don’t know what made me disappointed….
it’s like something that happened naturally….
or at least is that’s what i think…
or maybe the surrounding made me like that….
i’m not sure what is the truth and what is a lie….
i don’t know which part of it is correct and which is not…
i crack my head till i don’t know what to do…
am i being stupid that i trust everything ppl says?
am i just another fool that ppl like to see?
i’m tired…. exhausted…. just need to breath once more…
i don’t mind being fool….
cause inside me i know it’s just a joke….
i think i know what’s the truth and what’s not…
but i just need someone to confirm me…that’s all…

i just love ppl who makes me laugh when i’m down….
will i laugh after this year is gone?
u will always be in my heart….
i appreciates what u do….
i will always remember u….
even those who don’t….. juz as long i know u….
u’ll be kept inside… always…

sometimes i just wish i could remain the things which i hv now….
i don’t want to lose it….
i don’t want to lose the feeling….
it’s still nice having things this way….
but i’ve got no idea what will happen in the future…
i just don’t want things to be worst….
not now or ever….