It has finally revealed, no more worries
and no more eyes awake during the night… ( i really hope so)
I haven’t been able to sleep well even though i’m so freakin tired.. Basketball, Badminton, Swimming and Gym all together also don’t put me to sleep at night… adui…

I’m actually thinking of how to do better,
Since my paper one sucks
Really have to nail my facts right!!!
I really don’t wanna think about anything anymore besides my studies and my piano…
Both major exam happening same time, same month…
I need to put down what i’ve been holding on all this while…
Sometimes it’s not that i don’t wanna let go…
It just stay there… neither moving nor gone..
Even though i don’t think about it…
I really want it out of my brain… my memory
Studies: I wanna do A LOT BETTER then where i am i now…
But don’t know how….
I need to change my way of study… that’s for sure…
I need more memorising work! I need to study before lecture!
I need my brains to be more alert!
Piano: I haven’t been practicing Still trying to find time
Need to do a lot better than the last time
I’ll practice everyday during the holidays…

There’s particularly 2 songs that will make me tears on the spot.. Kenangan Terindah and Have You Ever….
We sang this two song in red box today.. aha
Practically, Winnie, KengKeng, Ken and AhBi really can sing le…
Very nice voices they have..
I didn’t hear Poh and Michelle sing much
Jessica wanted sing Linkin Park, no one really know how to sing…
Singing from 3 to 7… nice… cheap… not really expensive
Would have prefer a bigger room….

Too bad camera ran our of battery,
if not i would have their (Ken and Keng) duet recorded fully…
(+ they didn’t even sing half of it..)

I’m feeling weird today… again….
That misery thingy….
Sigh….
Nearly make me feeling like going home early…
But lucky i stayed on!

Thanks ZYang for the book!

I wonder which group will i be in the next sem…
Who’s my mentor?
Surely will miss my Group C…

AHAHAHA……^.^
Exam finally finish….!!!
Yippee….
Well…. friday… release of result…
(make sure i’ll pass with flying colours…. let’s be positive…)
hehe… but feeling scared actually

Celebration for nicky’s birthday…
Hopes he likes it…
Thanks for u ppl who turned up!!!!
I can still feel the cake in me… arh..

After long dwelling, finally ended up in Mid Valley…
Surprisingly Ji Yin, Teh and Wenyi came along!!!
Nice to have them..
one more…. Zhi Yang not with us… coz he go pak tor!!!
Half watch Quarantine, half Quantum…(both Qs)
Quarantine… scary for me… so i watched Quantum…
can’t blame the scary cat me…
next time got bf only go see such movie la… ahaha
I remembered my friend cried in the movie because she’s scared!!
She went under the seat…

Twice eating at food court…
Poh was… erm… coz ordered RM10 Korean food…
End up maggie mee in a wok… haha…
Others all damn nice make him feel so sad…
Kenneth and Nicky announced that they are together… officially..
After so long only announce, what larh!!

It was a coincidence to see a lot of ppl today
As in old friends….
I saw Bobo, YOke san, Jien, Andy, Nithya….
Nithya and priya too (Frm ucsi la…)

While on my way back, there was a couple infront of me…
Well, i wonder why the girl where till like that, though i didn’t see the front
From the back, it was weird…
Probably front was really revealing that everyone looked at her..
and also her heels… so so so high… maybe her bf too tall…
Well maybe attract attention, she got it, everyone was talking about her
(i over heard..)

Something Kenneth said today bothered me while i was driving back…
Someone in my Form 6 time said that few words to me too…
I remembered what they said to me till today… sigh..
Well…. is it really true…?
But don’t care la… But it bothers me… Not as much as my results now..
Practically i’m back with my emo mood… and my emo songs…
I didn’t hear any of it for the past 2 weeks!!!!
Hear until i wanna cry….

For the past 2 weeks…. Studying, studying and studying..

And now…. Phew…. The worst is half way done…

Feeling a lot better now….

Just can’t imagine, if I were to study like this for my STPM… what would I get?

I’m sure a lot better… but that’s the past…

As for now, I’m still disappointed with how I didn’t with my exam

I know the questions weren’t tough at all…

Were all basics,

Just that, I didn’t touch on those…sigh…

All I wish for is to pass…

Besides that, the past 2 weeks I have been experimenting on something…

I wanna see whether it really works not..

Think positive, attract positive thinking, positive results….

The Law of Attraction….

-The Secret-

I want to get this book so I can read during the holidays…

But I know I won’t see the result so fast…

So let’s wait and see…

Sat, Doreen and Harris birthday…

Sun, Aunt Callie…

Mon, Nicky…

Happy birthday!!!!!!!

Having to celebrate my aunt’s birthday yesterday,

Seeing my cousins, both leaving next year, going Australia, left with only one cousin… (my mom side)

Well… I think I’ll miss them…

I remembered whenever we have dinner gathering, we all sure sit one table…

The food come, sapu habis within 10 seconds…. (when we were young)

Now, 5 minutes later, half of the dish still there…

Everyone old aldi… ahha

Well… i’m kinda frustrated with myself when i was doing the FA…
i know the answers… but it just couldn’t come out of my brain…
It’s sounds more like i knew the answer…
Sigh… geramnya!!!…
I”m trying what Kavi and Lai teaching me…
Just hope i get some improvement…
U two are seriously motivator…
At least i don’t feel so bad after listening to what u have said…
Thanks Kavi and Lai…
(no wonder shon ask me to get to know lai more…. hehe)

We celebrated Keng Keng’s birthday…

Haha… had a hard time pulling her back making her stay before the cake arrived… ended up SS with camera while waiting… hehe

haha.. she didn

hope she had a great day….
(now i wonder how was bing’s birthday… was it fun? Well pity jim, felt so so happy on his birthday but felt bored and sad the next day)

Went futsal… well this time it’s with (sort of) different ppl
Amabel… u rock wei… damn chun la she…
Can do lots of style…
Jessica, Jessie and Keng was really high… so SS about scoring the goal
Can see that they really had fun…

I enjoyed it at first… but then suddenly i don’t feel the mood…
I stoned, looking around, shoot the wrong place… just didn’t had fun…
The feeling was just so wrong..
Don’t know why i felt that… sigh…
(Well the most important is that others had real gd time!!!)

it

Dedicated to Kenneth Tee:
Thank you for u teman-ing me in Sunway on last last fri..
For almost 2 hours….
Thank you so much!!!!! Deep down from my heart
(Kena sounding today… lucky not emo)
I still remembered what ur fren said… haha should i reveal it?
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I felt stupid for doing so much stuff for someone who barely even know how to appreciate it…. Thinking of it makes me feel… doink..
Maybe i should be more selfish and just think about myself only….!
Like what Dr Mehboob says… get urself save and out of trouble… don’t care bout others 1st…

Why in the world that my class thinks that he’s my bf?…
Everyone has his or her fren to stick to right?…
So we are just like that?…
How can i find a bf overnight just to prove that he’s not mine…?
Adui…. sakit kepala la…
(which makes me sound so desperate…)

The main main problem is that everyone has started of studying…
and i’m not getting anywhere yet…
Feel so lost… don’t know where to start…
Does writing on small papers help to remember?..
ZYang says he same same like me feel lost…
well at least he’s smarter than me…

…When will my booster come?…
I really can’t wait…
Better get started…!!!